I've discovered over the last few years, and often say with a grin, "God has three favorite places to speak to me: in the car, at the kitchen sink, and at the bathroom sink."
I have always surmised that his choice of these three places has something to do with the monotony of what I'm doing there. My mind, in autopilot, can wash dishes, curl my hair, and drive the familiar roads of the town I've lived in for the past 11 1/2 years, without too much trouble.
And it's then I often sense the still, small voice, whisper to my soul.
The reason I know it's him is that something inside my soul always sort of wakes up and stands at attention, all ears, so to speak. A week ago Monday was no exception.
I was driving in Fargo, on my way to work after running an errand. My mind was occupied only with lingering thoughts about a life-giving conversation I'd recently had with a close friend, and I wanted more.
Connecting conversation is lifeblood to me. You may have come across the quote by David Augsburger that sums up my feelings in one smooth sentence: "Being heard is so close to being loved, that for the average person they are almost indistinguishable."
Well, in this case, it's indistinguishable for me. I was stuck on the fact that I wanted more, couldn't have more right then, and that it made me feel like a sad, desperate soul. And that's when the Holy Spirit stepped in.
"You'll always need more. It's never-ending, this sort of filling you're looking for."
Oooh, that's when my soul stood up and took notice that something was going on.
Aren't we always looking for something to fill us up? People, food, shopping, alcohol, TV...you name it. That vacancy inside of us waxes and wanes, but never fully goes away.
Then he brought to mind the passage from John describing Jesus speaking to the woman at the well. He already knew of her situation - divorced 5 times, living with a man who was not her husband, something very looked down upon in those times. You might know how it goes. As they interacted, he asked her for a drink, and continued on to say, "Everyone who drinks of this water [the water from the well] will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again (John 4:13-14 ESV)
And she jumps on it! She wants to know! "Where do you find this water?"
"The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."
Think of it. A Samaritan woman. Alone. Talking to a Jewish man. Alone. Impermissible!! He asks her for a drink. He sees into her heart. She wants more.
What strikes me so deeply is what she does with this conversation.
She's so intrigued at his words, she left her water jug behind and ran off to tell everyone she could find about this "man who told me all that I ever did."
SHE LEFT HER WATER JUG BEHIND.
She brought that jug with her, in the middle of the day, when the other women wouldn't be there and possibly scorn her. She went there alone, with her jug, to go about her daily task of bringing life-sustaining water back to her home.
And she didn't take it with her.
See, she had a thirst that had nothing to do with water. Her life was proof. Always looking for something - that's usually what having five husbands means; that, or being used and thrown away. Either way: agony. Going out of her way to steer clear of her peers. The fear. The heartache. You can feel it in her actions and her words.
As the Holy Spirit was reminding me of this holy interaction and that the only true Satisfaction isn't found on earth, I suddenly felt released from all the sad wanting in my head. I guess it's back to REMEMBERING. When you find the One you're really after, you drop what it is you're trying to call life. When you find the One who truly satiates your longing heart, you can stop arranging and running after things that leave you ever-so-slightly empty. Or a lot empty.
I had felt the Spirit impressing on my heart, "The conversations with your friend are so good, and they're ordained by me, but if that's what you're calling life, you'll be wanting more 2 minutes after you stop talking."
Truth. Inside a whisper in my soul.
So we take for ourselves HIS FULLNESS.
We forget that union with Him is the answer to all our longings.
"For from his fullness we have all received, grace upon grace." John 1:16 ESV.
May we be ever-remembering.